This & that

There’s always this… and there’s always that…there will be always an opinion. . A constant contradiction. 
Light and dark. One side and the other.
That’s how I’ve come to relate to spiritual spaces never just one thing. Always layered.

If you know me, you’ll know I’ve always had a bit of a marmite relationship with it all.
I’ve been teaching yoga and moving through studios and retreats for over 10 years.
in a humble way the deeper I go, the more I realise how much I still don’t know… and never will.

There have been so many times I’ve felt myself contracting.
Slowly steering away from the very spaces I once felt safe in.

But then my heart pulls me back every time.

Like something greater saying, “You’re not done here. You have things to share”.

After 
“You should be Indian if you’re leading Kirtan.”
“You’ve got such a Cockney voice it doesn’t fit.”

“ you should / shouldn’t be vegan / drink alcohol/ raw juice cleanses…. The list has been large over 10 years of examples.

And I know I’m not the only one.
We’ve all felt it in different ways that moment of doubt, of wondering, Am I allowed to be here?

we can’t live by how we’re perceived because no one really knows our journey.
That sharing from the heart takes courage.

I’ve come to believe that being in these spaces especially as facilitators means creating safety around what we offer.
It has to be done with care.
It has to be nurtured, not rushed.
We have to honour the roots. Keep studying. Keep learning.

yet isn’t the heart enough too?
Doesn’t our lived experience matter?
Can’t it be both?

There’s always this… and there’s always that.

The contradiction that’s where I find myself now.

Through it all, let’s keep returning to what feels meaningful.
Supporting others.

Sharing what’s held me not because I have all the answers, but because these practices have carried me through some of my most tender moments.
 I’m sensitive.
I feel the weight of what’s said & and what isn’t.


I’m learning not to let it pull me away from what matters. Supporting others. Let’s be together in community . Let’s keep having honest conversations.

Let’s speak from the mess, the heart, the humanity of it all.

Love kel 💕